Reality Bites

I've always been told that if you have a problem with someone to go to that person and talk with them. It seems as if the internet has made some people cowards - talking behind your back seems to happen frequently. I love when others jump on this bandwagon. I'm so tired of drama. For those who like to talk behind my back, here are some FACTS about me. I have 1 Facebook - no, you can't add me on Facebook. I have 1 Twitter account - DaleJrFan50. I have this blog. I don't have a WordPress (is that similar to a blog?) I don't have a MySpace. These 3 things are the only social media aspects that I participate in.
Want to know another harsh reality? No matter what you say about me, I'm still my harshest critic. Depression sucks. Been there, done that, still doing that. It is by far my biggest obstacle in life. Can you imagine going through life with such a negative view of yourself that you can't even name a handful of good things about yourself. Everyone tells me I have great characteristics, but I don't believe them. A counselor told me something like this once... "You are your own worst critic. I really do think that if we don't get a hold of your thoughts that it will be the end of you eventually." So whatever you think you can say about me that will get me down, it won't work. Trust me, I've already thought it.
People wonder why I refuse to let people get close to me... It's because those close to me have the greatest ability to hurt me. I've had enough letdowns in my life. This week at work, we had a discussion about some of our patients who are always in a bad mood or have negative things to say. You know what though, you CHOOSE happiness. You CHOOSE if you have a positive or negative influence on people. I have news for those who think that they will get me down. I'm only worried about impressing God. He's the only one that matters in the end anyway!

Leaving The Past Behind

I've never really been forced to evaluate myself like I have been doing lately. It has been quite interesting to say the least. One of the biggest things that I struggle with is leaving the past behind. For some unknown reason, I tend to want to keep my mistakes in my front pocket. Why would anyone want to get into this habit? LOL. I've been trying to kick that habit to the curb, but it is proving to be easier said than done. I'm going to try to start everyday as a new day - no more carrying over yesterday's mistakes (or last week's, last month's, or even last year's.)

On a positive note, I recently hit a mini-goal in my weight-loss journey! The first number in my weight has dropped! WOOHOO!!! I really do have quite an amazing group of Beachbody peeps that inspire me! :)